Self-Portrait Grade 12
ck one, bus tickets, some mother’s car, frozen orange juice crystals
spooned into the slim neck of a vodka bottle, bomb scar
shiny, taut on the shoulder of one boy
inside of which I
was a tourist, passing
and these boys aren’t full even: stuttering, wet, timid
and these boys strum, nod, elasticate, convince,
bury, these boys drum kits in their nose hairs
freshly beaten asses waving to a tender vancouver night from
a white convertible, expletives fingered in dust, okay?
the boys sat treasuring, malignant, filing cabinets full
one year younger
one lap around the block, me “holding” their cigarettes
a drag is three, buzzed from one drag, thanks you can
have it back
Self-Portrait with Tracey Emin’s Tower Drawings
tower drawing 4Sometimes a woman is an ant
eater is a mole, has paws, prays at a
tower drawing 7 Is she blowing smoke?
(Am I? Do you?)
A mirage of a big-boobied lady?
Is she led by string?
Is she leashed by
dark blue drool?
tower drawing 3 It’s perfect
the length of the human arm.
pussy is a butterfly.
tower drawing 27 A belly pregnant is so perfect it must stop.
Aisha Sasha John is the author of The Shining Material, from which “Self-Portrait Grade 12” and “Self-Portrait with Tracey Emin’s Tower Drawings” have been borrowed (BookThug 2011). She is curator of the online gallery BOOM FOR REAL.